The Dark Side Of Love
My passion for the dark in all things extends also to the dark side of love.
I have found that my darkest desires are those that are the most fulfilling; the need for pain, to be controlled, is very much
a part of me, one that I rejected until fairly recently. However, once I got on the internet, and on IRC, I discovered that I
was not alone in my dark passions. In fact, it is a recognized (though by no means considered mainstream) lovestyle that
is called D/s for Dominance/submission. D/s is often confused with BDSM (Bondage, Discipline, Sadism, Masochism) and
although the two are related, there are differences. BDSM most always involves physical pain, where D/s does not; in some
cases, such as my own relationship, it does, but the primary focus is on the submission, the giving over of control to another
person. For me, it means that I have accepted my lover as my Master, and have chosen to give to him the gift of my
submission. This means that he may do as he pleases with me, I will willingly satisfy all of his dark passions, as he does
mine. I am his slave, his toy, his property to use as he chooses. This lifestyle drew me, not just for the darkness of the
physical pain when I am punished, but also for the surrender of control, I think even the "forbidden" aspects of this very
alternative lovestyle also draw me, and I have never found satisfaction before the way that I have in letting my darkest
passions and desires reign.
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